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Metaphor

24 Saturday Jul 2021

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This is the story of a man who heard a ringing in his ear that would not go away. The only way to control the ringing was by sitting at his desk to write. He found that if he wrote a sentence or two the sound might fade almost completely. So he sat at his desk one day and began to write a story about a fireplace with a blazing fire burning within it. If you looked deeply into this fire, you might begin to see the vapours that rise from the burning wood and wisp up the chimney like streams flowing uphill. But if you tried to look more closely you would find only smoke, with no hint of the stream remaining. Only with an unfocussed gaze could you barely discern the rising path.

At this point, the writer tried to get up from his chair to prepare dinner, but the ringing returned even stronger than before and forced him back down on his seat, holding his head in pain, before subsiding somewhat. Writing calmed the ringing as before, so he continued, this time about a still pond at the top of a mountain. In the pond were little silvery fish, whose glimmering movements you could catch out of the corner of your eye. If you reached in to try to touch one, they would scatter and disappear under the ripples. Looking again, it would appear as though there was no life in the pool at all, as though the fish were simply an illusion. The air at the mountain top was still and cold. Beyond the small weeds at your feet, there could be nothing living there at all. All around you, wherever you looked, seemed empty and lifeless.

And he wrote another story: this time, he pictured himself standing at the top of a tall tower in the middle off a city, looking down into the crowd. He was looking for his friend but he couldn’t find him among the multitude of heads. He knew he was down there. He wanted to spot him, capture his attention, and smile and wave, saying, look! I’m here. I climbed this tower. I made it to the top. He looked and looked, but he couldn’t find him. The heads moved like waves, if the tower was a buoy floating off the shore. One head must belong to his friend, but from this distance, they could just as well be all the same. But if he stared at one…they were certainly all different. The right one was all he needed, but that one was the one he couldn’t find.

He was growing hungry. He hated the idea of leaving his desk. The dot at the end of his story was in the wrong place. He knew that and tried to move it, but it had curled itself into a ball and would not budge. He knew why. He knew that the dot knew, and that the dot knew that he knew too: there is no right place for it. The more he wrote, the farther it seemed to move. Both he and it were searching for the perfect spot, and failing to find it. He folded his paper carefully to bring the dot closer to where he wanted it…and it was still wrong. And his paper became crumpled. So he had to unfold it and smooth it out.

Once when he was younger, he was so hungry but had nothing to eat in the house. At the time, he’d sat next to his bed with a book in his hand, trying simultaneously to read his hunger away, and let himself be nourished by words. Neither worked. In the end, he went to bed after drinking three glasses of water, woke the next day and went to the store for food. He’d bought two cans of soup, a loaf of bread, a sausage, and a bottle of milk. After eating nearly all of it, he sat at his table, feeling full but slightly ill. He wished he never had to eat ever again, and wrote this story (perhaps the first story he ever wrote):

These days, five dollars could buy you a little bit. It might be enough for a small meal, but you’d have spent it if you went with your friends to the bar the night before and left it as a tip for the bartender. If I never had to eat ever again, I could have kept the money, and (what would I do with it?) I’d have bought myself a simple flute, and amused myself with the sounds it made as I blew air into it, and the notes floated away from me across the breeze. Although I suppose that if I never had to eat, I might miss eating sometimes. I’d miss some things, like warm bread and sausages. If I liked them only for feeling full, maybe I wouldn’t miss them after all. I don’t know.

…He felt even his hunger subside. But while thinking of his story in his head, he’d managed to shuffle into his kitchen and prepare two sandwiches to bring to his desk. With a small pile of sandwiches, he’d never have to get up again, except to go to the bathroom.

The creases were still visible on his paper, so he decided to start with that. KkllhvklfnnklkkkmKKxmesk started on the lateral plane, and dragged a line across the desert sand so that it separated two halves of the world: one where turmoil would never cease, and storms would rage on forever; the other where peace would reign supreme, but the sky never filled with clouds and never shed rain, and crops died dried to their roots before they could bear fruit. The only place where things would grow was right on the edge of both halves, right on the line. All the plants grew slanted towards the sun on that line, with their roots pointed towards the edge of chaos, their leaves facing out towards the peaceful land. This is how the people lived: they built their houses in peace but ventured over for their food and water. Everyone thought that was how the world was, until the line in the sand blew away and order was lost. Now, everything grows everywhere and cannot be contained except through an extraordinary concentrated effort.

The ringing was almost gone. He could feel it. The dot seemed closer. It was hard. How many more words would he need to write? He didn’t know and he couldn’t guess. There was this other story which he tried not to think about, but he was running out of ideas. It went like this:

Why is it that when you aim to say something the words don’t come and you can never quite grasp what you’re aiming for? It’s like trying to trap a fly in the palm of your hand. There was once a bee that landed right on his outstretched hand and, without any provocation, stung him with a slow and deliberate action, leaving the sting deeply embedded within his flesh, which swelled to the size of a large river stone, even though the sting was hastily removed. That was his writing hand. He could not write a single word for weeks, or what felt like weeks. After that incident, his hand would not stop writing, for fear of losing the ability again. The bee probably died. Or maybe it still looks for its missing sting, flying in circles above his ears with a frantic, maniacal beating of wings.

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Interlude

21 Wednesday Oct 2020

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leaped onto the stage and shouted towards the alarmed audience, “I was born to a woman as a healthy child but ‘born’ does not describe the event that occurred to me at the start of my life because I was not aware of my existence until the age of six when I tripped on a loop of wire and fell face first into the ditch where dogs shat and ants walked and felt sure of death until the screams of nearby children rushed help towards me and pulled me from the ground into the soft comfort of home where I lived, felt the reassurance of human construction and love for my mother who nursed me back to health while I waited, completely unaware of how my wounds were sealed, or that some part of my existence was scraped into the dirt when I fell so that out there today there may be a rock or smear of dirt whose existence is closely tied to mine though I am not aware of it, or if swallowed by some bird and planted with a fruit seed on another patch of ground, grown into a tree that shares the same name as me, I would not be aware of it unless I, too, had grown into a tree, perhaps after I am dead, and joined in the great council of trees, speaking to one another as the wind passes through our leaves like vague and unreliable messengers, a garbled language like many languages mashed together and made indistinguishable from noise, and that maybe is how we speak at all, barely distinguishable because of all the sounds we could make, but close enough so that these words as I speak to you now have some sort of sense-making in them that you could even repeat some of it in approximation to your neighbours when they ask what you had learned today, where you went, expecting the meaning of life in that lecture you thought you wanted to hear if only the words in their combination were not so ingenuine, because somehow you had sensed that, even those words, being very similar to these, were also different in some way and was that because you had truly sensed their speaker was disingenuous or has some fault in your character altered the meaning of the words so that as the speaker said one thing, you heard almost that thing, but different, as it passed through the membrane that rests between your eyes and the speaker’s lips, the sound travelling that way before it even reached your ears, or the focal point within your mind that recognizes the garblegarble into words you might have spoken or heard before, then how would you know that anything you’ve ever heard before was true or right or understandable to anyone but yourself or could you say truthfully that you trust your own judgement in all things, because if you do then you are a fool, as only fools know the truth absolutely, just as only when close to death do we truly know what it means to be alive, as a breath underwater, or maybe we are all fools, knowing absolutely that there is fear, fear of death, and fear of failure, fear of pain and fear of disappointment, that makes us lie to ourselves to cope, saying, ‘this is only the best that I can do,’ which is the same as saying, ‘I must compromise in all things, because perfection does not exist’ but does anyone believe that, I wonder, because perfection must exist if we have any notion of it, or how else do we compare our lives and work to others, or how else do we see things that please us and say, ‘that is as close to perfect as I can imagine it,’ if perfect never existed, or if it has, it is all gone now, and only the memory of it survives and as the world loses its perfection the strive for perfection grows harder every day, and I grow old waiting to reach it, ‘inspiration,’ it is often called, but perhaps that, too, is a lie and no such thing exists because the perfection we see in inspiration is only from lack of attention, and any more time we spend looking would cause us to see its imperfections even more, just as how the master spends time working a painting, corrects the spots endlessly before halting, and only because the patron has come to pick up the commissioned work, only then would we stop, when someone else comes for us, or we would go on indefinitely, in that search and endless correction, ignoring the thought that perfection will never come, that the likelihood decreases as we work, the time spent causing perfection to stretch farther and farther away into the past such that no arm is long enough to pull it back to where we stand now, rooted in our spots like those trees, as all around us moves, seemingly in greater direction than us, then we should remember that perfection does not belong in any person’s pocket, cannot be stolen, because it is gone, but if I can do one thing to help, and the one after me could pick up the small piece that I left, and one after that, then what I built might not be all wasted, though by the end of our journey it may not be recognizably mine, if I could have some reassurance that my mother before me created me so that I may have added one thing to hers, and the one after me could add to mine, then as our lives are bound to creation through an endless string of creation I might not have wasted all away, and comfort is enough to enjoy, instead of living in agony, as I would have, had I died before I had lived,” and off the stage, dancing

Game

23 Monday Sep 2019

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Hit plays a card. It shows the Goat. It strikes Solve among entry points, shows the Face and leaves her weakened. Solve strikes back with Admonishment, attacking Hit directly. Solve gains the upper hand. She draws, but is unlucky. Her draw is Fever. Hit retaliates by springing his trap, Ridicule, and is able to gain back his lead. He then plays Snake and wins the game.

some bird

23 Monday Sep 2019

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Jonathan Livingston Seagull lived among other seagulls, all nearly exactly the same in size, shape and coloring. Due to an obsession with flight, he spent most of his time exercising, neglected eating and died early in his life. His flock mourned him briefly, but were secretly relieved that they no longer had to worry about feeding one of their own. Speculation among the seagulls suggests his parents may have fed him too well for too long, and he never really learned to become a self-sufficient bird.

Johnny Runs Away from Home

12 Wednesday Sep 2012

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He took with him: twenty-four dollars and seventy-five cents earned by selling his stash of candy to his classmates at school, plus all the money he had found on the ground over the past two years; his favourite book, a picture bible he had borrowed once and never returned; his toothbrush and a half-used roll of toothpaste; a bar of soap in a plastic bag; Kit Kat, his plush cat; his school backpack, carrying everything inside. He wore a fresh set of clothes, his runners, cap, and coat. Seeing there was nothing left for him to do, he went out the front door, locked it with the key he usually carried on a string around his neck. The key he dropped through the mail slot, carefully so it wouldn’t make a noise. Continue reading →

Bookworm’s Romance

21 Monday Dec 2009

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I remember when I was younger, there were these kinds of love stories – fantasies, of course: a girl borrows a book from the library and sees a boy’s name on the library slip. She then vows to find the owner of the name who reads the same books as her. When she does, they fall in love. Even better, the boy had also been searching for her through the library slips. When they meet, they fall in love. It’s a happy ending.

The library has long since switched to a computerized system to keep track of the movement of books. Only the computer can find the names of boys and girls who have read some particular books. It’s not so interested in playing matchmaker to them, for obvious reasons.

So, I decided to stick notes in the books I read before returning them to the library. It was an experiment, in some ways. I did that a few times. A month later, I checked back on the books I had left notes in, to see if I had received a note back. In every one of them, my own note was still inside, untouched.

Passage

20 Sunday Sep 2009

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Behind her was the road and in front of her was the sea. She took a step forward to examine it closer. Her brother, she had heard, his body had been found at this beach two months earlier. She wanted to see the place with her own eyes.

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Mother

13 Wednesday Aug 2008

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It was Mother’s birthday. Bernard, the kind one, was the only one of her four children who went back to see her, bringing with him a much-welcomed strawberry cake and sweet memories.

The room where he found Mother was the back living room of their old house. At noon, it was the sunniest room. Its tall windows looked out to a backyard garden, carefully kept with not a weed in sight. The garden was Mother’s favourite. Diane often found here out there, lying on the grass, so still that Diane’s heart would stop, thinking she had fainted,…or worse.

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